20 Weeks down

Slightly more than halfway through. Since I most likely will be scheduled a bit early, I won't be going the full 40 weeks. It's so hard to believe it's been 20 weeks. In many ways I'm only just now starting to feel pregnant. Of course the beginning was the just knowing something was different. Now I'm seeing my belly growing and I'm feeling the little one swimming around. I still haven't been able to really feel much from the outside, but it's still early. I am pretty sure she (not that I'm totally sure but it sounds better than it) is still breech. Most of the movement is in my lower belly so I'm sure that's where the feet still are. The doctor actually told me last week that with each pregnancy, the babies have more room to move around because the muscles never fully return to pre-pregnancy tautness. I never thought about it, but it makes sense! She told us of a woman she saw once that had four children vaginally and at 37 weeks with her fifth, it was breech. She freaked out knowing she would probably have to have a C/S. But then she thought, with four other ones at home, maybe a planned delivery would be nice! I could not imagine having that many children!! At times I fear if I will be able to handle two. Especially when Carter decides to show just how independent he thinks he really is! But I know we will work through it. But this is it. The kitchen will be closed after this one. Our family will be even numbers and we don't need to bring any more into this world!

This takes me on a quick rant about certain television families. Many people know my hatred of Kate of Jon and Kate Plus Eight. Well, hatred is a harsh word. I just don't understand her. But the family I can't stand even more is the Duggars. I mean, come on!! 18 kids?!?! Why in God's name would you want to bring that many kids into this world. Now, I'm not saying that the kids are at fault and who knows...one of them could be some world-changing pioneer one day. But, there needs to be logic behind your intentions. Sure, they believe that birth control is evil. Many people do. There is that whole "BC is essentially instant abortion" theory. While I don't believe it, I can understand the logic. BUT...when a couple does not believe in using medical or barrier BC, they usually practice other ways of controlling. This couple just seem to reproduce like rabbits. Wouldn't there be a point when any sane woman would push the guy off of her? Wow! And the fact that in today's day and age, it's difficult to fully provide for one child, let alone that many. Sure she's homeschooling therefore able to teach her kids only what she wants them to learn. Sure she's not putting the kids in daycare. But really, how much time can she actually devote to one child? If one is having difficulties in math and another in vocabulary, how to help them both while nursing two other infants? Then we get into the future for these kids. The only way they will get to go to college would be on the charity of others. The town pitches in to care for these kids. Why should they have to? Oh, and another thing about the family. They are teaching their kids that this is the will of God, to have huge families and depend on others. So, what happens when the kids grow up and try to do the same thing? They end up with five kids each, but who is going to help them? Most likely, the majority of them are not going to get degrees in anything so what are they going to do for money? The cycle continues.

Now, I'm not saying that there should be a limit to families. I am no where near a Chinese dictatorship. But, people need to use common sense. Chris and I firmly agreed that two children was plenty. That way we can provide for them both without putting them at a disservice. If for some crazy chance God decides to be funny and give us another child, we will manage. But we feel for our family, four is enough. I just hope the children of families like the Duggars and that other family (I always forget their last name since I don't watch the show) make the best of their situation. OH, and don't get me started on that one single mother who went and had octuplets!!

Sorry for the rant. I guess I just wanted to post something of substance!